In The Darkest Dark My Mind Churns

Last night I awoke after my first post in quite a while, and like usual I had some of the strangest thoughts. So naturally I also had the most strange responses to myself. As I lay there not quite sure that I awoke, only sure that I could hear the rain on the window pain above my head and the soft sigh of the wind I reminisced on the things I have experienced. I thought about the knowledge I know, and all the knowledge I wish to attain...it is a strange thing, knowing that you wish to know more about how to know as much as possible. Yet all the while feeling you know too much. 

Its like this, my nightly thoughts.

It's horrible to say that I feel such unease, especially knowing the things that I do, and ignoring the things that I don't. I fear the intelligence of the mind often renders it's user disadvantageous. For as I lay in my bed, only hoping for the asylum of mindless abyss if only to receive the soft answer of the wind, I instead endure an amaranthine assault of thoughts and questions. Of most of these I am sure I will never have the answer to. These casuistic, and frankly illogical questions, often only support my most recent belief. That ignorance truly is bliss. A man named Aldous Huxley once said "facts don't cease to exist because they are ignored" but it had me thinking that surely it must be easy to posses fewer curiosities if only you retain less to be curious about. 

Just my two cents on the topic. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

A Long Eventful Journey

I know its been quite literally forever since I last posted, and maybe there is not many of you left which is OK. I have just recently realized that in this the hardest time of my life I am struggling to find the positives. A great deal of things has happened in the past months both good and bad, yet I find myself in a dark place. My doctor diagnosed me with severe adult depression. This really wasn't a shock to me at all. With the build up of seemingly unimportant events threatening to crush my spirit and life entirely I figured it was only time before I realized how far gone I really was. It happened a few weeks ago when my boyfriend of now 2 years had a job interview while I was down there. Fast forward several hours and he was hired on the spot. 

I felt crushed.

The thing was for the last ten months the long distance has made me sad and desolate. Everyday I would tell myself that our two year anniversary would be what made it all worth it. I planned everything. He would show up and signs would tell him to shower and put on the nice suit he brought like I asked him to. Then the signs and flowers would lead him to me outside in a long pink dress (pink is not my color but I wanted to get out of my comfort zone) and the limo would pick us up and take us to this winery for dinner. That wasn't even the best part. At dinner I was going to give him two plane tickets. We were going to go to Washington for 3 days and 2 nights and stay at a nice hotel and hike and relax. How could I not be crushed hearing that his new job started only 7 days before our anniversary?!

I tried hard for the next few days, after a total meltdown when we got home, to be better and not to make him feel bad about not being able to make it up for our anniversary. So when I got home I canceled everything...heartbroken. The next day I called my therapist. 

Things are getting better. I have to work really hard on me. 

It isn't even close to everything weighing on me...but it was the most important. I think tomorrow I will post about something happy. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Black Room

I have a room in my head, and I fear its from despair.

A room as black as night I have, and in it sits a chair.

You see when I get lost and lonely, I go and sit in there.

Where vacant eyes and distant thoughts are all I have to share.

So I sit in my black room, and at the world I stare. 

I Dream of Travel

As of late I have been spending my time doing light reading, adventuring the great wilderness, and dreaming of travel. I have lately come to realize that my desires for the future  are in fact somewhat out of reach, however, I have also come to realize that where I am now will not get me there. So I have been sitting, planning, plotting, and quite frankly dreaming of a future for myself where I have everything I want. Let no one say that achieving all of your dreams is easy for surely it is the biggest challenge of all. Well why don't I go back a little bit for all of you lovely people who read this. Although, sometimes I have no idea if anyone reads this at all.  

Well about two weeks ago my best friend from Finally Freckled and I went to Lake Berryessa. Which is about 45 minutes from Napa, California. We got our sandwiches, tea, water, and chips and headed up with our beach towels and my boyfriend. Lately he and I have been drifting but thankfully he agreed to come and see me for his spring break because I went down for mine. He drove because he is a sweetie...usually. He's the top left, I realize y'all have never seen him before so, here he is dorkiness and all. 

Well we stayed for about two hours and soaked up the sun, tested the waters, and took many pictures together. Oh, and of course we ate our sandwiches! Meanwhile I have taken up some light reading recently. I am halfway through Tale of Two Cities; just started Ernest Hemingway's compilation of short stories; also am going to start Henry V by William Shakespeare.

Finally I am busy planning many trips with Finally Freckled, including our near adventure to college we hope! So far our travel plans are extensive and detailed, however, I am almost entirely positive that by the time we graduate and it is time for this trip that more than a few details will change.

Side note I got a sweet lanyard based on the art work Starry Night by Van Gogh and a super cute book phone case that's a map too!!! I promise I will post tomorrow and Friday! An update on my relationship, and maybe on something else very entertaining. It may seem boring to you but this is my life as of late. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

A Change of Mind, of Room, of Tea

To start here is a gorgeous calming picture, now lets enter the storm.

My last post was about my favorite thing in the world, books. Today will be partially about books but also about the small journey I have been going through for the past few weeks. Keeping in mind that books have always been my escape from reality I will tell you about this journey. 

Starting about three weeks ago I started to go back down into a depression; I started to question my decisions, whether they were well thought out or not, and in turn had started to question my own essence. The stress has come from my relationship, or I could say relationships, and my ability to cope. One day my amazing boyfriend told me that he felt I was ignoring him for this other guy. (For those who aren't every-post-readers I am in an open relationship and have the equivalent of two boyfriends, yes it is complicated to say the least.) Because I don't use their real names I'll remind you my boyfriend is "Tim" and my, what some have been calling side guy, his name is "Matt." Go back to my previous post and you can see my little freak-out rant. 

Anyway, I went down to So-Cal last week and I loved it. I loved being with him. The way I feel when I am with him is as if we have known each other our entire existence. It is as if we are the girl and boy who grew up next to each other that everyone knows will be married one day. We swam and played with his dog; we went on long walks and a few adventures; we spent the week not being rushed or forcing activities, but instead relaxing and just enjoying the presence of each other. All of this made it even harder to understand my emotions between him and Matt. So now to Matt. I got back and he was ecstatic to see me, I mean jumping off the walls begging me to hang out as soon as possible. Skip forward a bit and I was about to reach a huge breakthrough personally, I just didn't know that yet. My best friend Tatiana from Finally Freckled, and Matt and I were all hanging out. We watched a movie, headed to his house, drank some bomb tea, and went swimming (oh can't forget the AMAZING sandwiches we ate.) It's like we aren't even trying when we are together; we are like magnets also, pulling towards each other in an endless dance that I don't even notice. 

This whole time I have been waiting in anticipation. Waiting for Tim to admit his jealousy even though I "have permission to see other people", waiting for Matt to demand that I pick one or the other, but most of all I think I have been waiting for the moment when I snapped. Well, wouldn't you know it, on the way back from Matt's house Tatiana and I were in the car and the tears started flowing. We talked about a lot on the way back to her house, and in the end I felt a strong resolve to stop putting them both through this; most importantly, to stop putting myself through this. My mental, physical, and spiritual health is growing weaker, and my resolve to pretend I am capable of juggling two men and all three of our emotions is gone. I guess Matt understood that because the next night we talked. He asked me to choose. 

So here I sat all day. At this new desk. Soothing myself with pots of tea's, fancy tea cups, candles galore, and my books. I've made my new resolution to myself quite clear. The physical things between Matt and I have stopped, and when Tim gets here in a week and a half the first thing we will do is talk. In the end I have to pick one. I have always been the "Yes" girl, that one girl who no matter what her predicament, strives to be the individual to make every person whom she surrounds herself with happy. I'm saying no more. This is for me. I refuse to be the one to make everyone happy. I like them both, and the pro's and con's are very even (as Tatiana and I discussed) but I know in the end where I want to be. So for now I will relax, drink my tea's, wonder into my fantasy land of books, and be blissfully ignorant of the world. 

"Living is Easy with Eyes Closed" -John Lennon

And with that I bid you goodnight. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Literary Addiction

For many years I have loved the knowledge that comes from books. The idea that you can enter a world entirely different than your own, just by opening the pages and letting your imagination roam. Growing up it is clear to me the long lasting effects of a well read and well educated individual. Whether at home, or at school, even in the general public the advantage of those who have read early on and often is plain to see. 

My grandmother and mom have always pushed me to be the best person that I could be. At the age of two I started reading chapter books. At the age of 5 I horded flashlights so that at night I could read under my blankets; I say horded because I did not know you could replace the batteries, of course mom finally figured that out and stopped buying them for me. At the age of 7 I was reading the Harry Potter books at an alarming rate. Fast forward 11 years, and at my now age of 18, my "literary addiction" is worse than ever. 

You book lovers out there know what I mean. We read for fun, we live in the world where anything is possible if you pick up a book, and we fall in love with in depth characters. There is a great quote by George R. R. Martin that all of you who are teased, scorned, and tormented for your love of knowledge should know and take to heart. 

“A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies... The man who never reads lives only one.”

Before you delve back into your worlds of fantasy, history, or whatever your vice may be. Here is a poem I wrote in High School for your entertainment.

Abaft the tranquility is barred, a gate from which the pain cannot seep.

A tired mind and shattered soul sentinel the ingression to secrets beneath. 

Only time reveals and only love may heal. 

But one hole shall take more time to fill. 

Nothing to mend, everything bent.

Some things just missing.     

A soft and plaintive cry eludes and the barred gates start hissing.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Spring Break 2015

The stress from the semester was almost overwhelming as the time for spring break rolled around on Thursday last week. Thankfully class ended on Thursday and it seemed as if the stress on my body was instantly lifted. I was about to head down to my boyfriends house for the break and the thought alone of seeing him later that day made me so happy I could cry. Unfortunately, this meant a 7 hour drive starting at 3 o'clock in the afternoon and I did dread the drive to Apple Valley all the way from Napa. In case you don't know what that looks like, its something like this...

Its a long, very straight, and altogether a not entertaining drive. The views are dull, the weather is hot, and its blindingly sunny when its 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Finally, after 7 1/2 hours of boring as hell driving I arrived at his house at 10:30pm. Thankfully he kissed me and hugged me and we got to go in the hot tub before a great nights sleep. 

Four days later and my spring break vacation in the lovely, and frankly hot as hell, southern California is going amazing! We have been swimming and hot tubing every day and night which has been so much fun although not without negative side effects. I did get one of the worst sunburns even though I lathered up on sunscreen, wore a hat, and went in and out of the sun every 30 mins. Other than swimming we have been watching movies, relaxing, playing with his adorable dog Sarge, and just plain messing around. I have been so relaxed and with no homework assigned for the 10 days of relaxation. Tomorrow I'm not sure what I will be posting but I know I will come up with something. So here are some pictures from my So-Cal vacation. 

Lather up, get out in the sun, and enjoy yourselves! 

Felt confident enough to wear a bikini! <3 My journey to loving myself is working. 

Its been sunny like this everyday starting at 7:30 am! With the highest temperature, so far, being over 85 degrees.

Here's my boyfriends 8 month old puppy. His name is Sarge. Were teaching him how to love swimming.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Trouble With Love

If you have read all my blog posts you will have no doubt seen that I am in fact in an open relationship. Well I can't lie to you guys. Its been hell. To start with my amazing boyfriend of almost a year and a half. For the sake of this post lets call him Tim. So Tim and I are doing great well depending on your view of things. We Skype, text, Facebook, and I think of him constantly. The problem with that is that it only took me about 2 weeks to be so miserable I wanted to crawl in a hole and stay there. I started crying every night, having dreams that would make me miss him so much I was sick. Tim seemed fine, at least that's what he was telling me, he was part of a new boy scout adventure crew and started going to school. Naturally I am always happy when he isn't unhappy. The only problem with that is that I was so miserable I couldn't begin to even pretend I was OK without him. In steps, lets call him Matt, so in steps Matt. I met him online and thought it would be great to have some new friends in town (well sorta from town or at least near). 

Matt is so much fun, he is so smart, and well honestly hes cute. So in case you couldn't tell what the dilemma was, here it is. Matt is amazing, and he fills that hole that Tim made when he left me here without him. But I love Tim so much it seems unfair to hang out with Matt so much. Naturally after hanging out a while with Matt (and being in an open relationship) things progressed to a little more than friendship. He kissed me, I kissed him. So per our agreement I told Tim everything about Matt and I. He tells me hes ok with it and he is just glad I'm not so unhappy anymore. I believed him because I have never had any reason to think he wouldn't tell me what hes thinking. 

In the end Tim lied and he is upset about it. Now I don't see Matt as much and now I miss both of them. I guess when it comes to guys I just don't really have any idea what I'm doing. I miss Tim so much it hurts and Matt says he misses me. I miss them both. 

Well I don't really have a life lesson here yet but I guess its more of a rant today. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Its All About My Nips

I am so sorry I didn't post yesterday as promised about my experience with getting my nipples pierced. First of all I went with my best friend Tatiana because she and I are so close and I was way to scared to go alone!!!

We get there 15 mins early. Now I know your thinking "wouldn't that make you more nervous" surprisingly it helped so much being there just breathing and getting prepared mentally. When my piercer arrived she was so young and welcoming and she made sure to make me as comfortable as possible we talked for a bit till we finally get to the nitty gritty business of it. 

The first part of the process was the easiest! Its where you choose where you want the piercing to go so you stand in front of a mirror and she takes a pen and puts two dots on both sides of each of your nipples. It is SOOOOOOOO important that you voice you opinion here guys, If you want a dot higher or lower than you gotta say so! Unfortunately this is the point where you reach the hard part. You sit in a chair and she used a pair of clamps to make the dots line up and to pull up my nipples and she puts the needle through you! Now, I have read many stories and did so much research about which one hurts more the first or the second. Some of them were lucky and had two piercers so they could do both at once but for me it was the gruesome one at a time. The first one I had done was the right side and I thought it hurt maybe a 7/10 and figured that it wasn't so bad. I was so wrong because he second one on the left hurt so much worse, like at least a 9/10 but I still pulled through! 

In the end I had to lay back in the chair for about 5 mins because I got dizzy and thought I was going to pass out. But my piercer got me some water and let me sniff an alcohol pad and I was good to go in 5 mins. After it was straight to Tatiana's (my friend from Finally Freckled) house and we laid there I took a bunch of tylenol and she gave me ice for my boobies. We watched movies and relaxed all day long!

In the end even the weakest of us can endure the worst pain for a few seconds for things we want. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Breaking News On My Chest

Ok so as promised at the end of this post I will be putting my before picture at the end of this post, however, for the first part of this post I will be telling you some awesome news. I HAVE DECIDED TO GET MY NIPPLES PIERCED. Yes I know that this is a "personal piece of information" but I always post "personal" things on here...Its a blog isn't it! Alright so I had a little help deciding with my bf's approval and also my best friend helped me choose.

It's going down tomorrow y'all! I am so nervous but I have read up on all the stuff I need to know but I really am kinda scared. I guess we will see how it goes. Tomorrow I will for sure be posting an extensive review of the process. I hope you all wish me luck. Here is to hoping that they look as good as this picture!

I have a far way to go as far as my goal in fitness. I once was very healthy and fit unfortunately with a big surgery last may and then also having my wisdom teeth taken out in August I have gained at least 40 pounds. With a strict exercise plan and support of many people I hope in 12 weeks time I will be back to my healthy fit weight. So as promised (although I think its horrible) my before picture is finally being posted. I have big goals and hope to reach them as soon as possible.

Until tomorrow when I give you my update on the most nerve wracking experience of my life.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Kayla's Kicking my Butt

It's Sunday y'all!!

 I have been in Southern Cali. since Thursday visiting my man and I love it the weather is fantastic 80 degrees and above every day! I have been getting my tan on, enjoying the sun, and relaxing. I of course had my usual course load of homework including the essay but I took my best friend from the blog Finally Freckled's advice and laid in the sun, did about an hour at a time, and did not distract myself during with social media or anything. Needless to say its done, I'm happy, now I can relax till I leave tomorrow afternoon *sad face.*

The homework moutain

The gorgeous Mojave desert sun!

On another entirely different note. About two weeks ago me and my best friend, who has her own blog called Finally Freckled at finallyfreckled.com, purchased Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide Weeks 1-12. We both saw so many people with great results from her program and both decided we want to get on top of being not only skinny, but healthy and in shape. Week 2 is coming up and so far I am so sore but feeling good and getting more and more motivated! The program is intense not something you should do halfheartedly! However that being said on Kayla's website (https://www.kaylaitsines.com.au/) there are free downloadable work outs so you can see and try out the exercises and if you think you can do those then I would recommend her guide. 

I won't be posting weekly progress shots although I will be taking one every week, instead I will be posting an update every 4 weeks so you can all so how much of a change there is. So far there isn't much change although I feel more energized and excited for my workouts. Don't be fooled though they are so hard! Tomorrow I will post the before shot. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Photography

This semester I am finishing some of my general ed classes for transferring and the art class I chose was Photography 120. So I am working with how to take good pictures, so far I love it and thought I would share a picture with you! These are just fun pictures I have been taking to get to know the camera I am using which is a Cannon T3i.

This is my friends doggy sulley :)

Im on my way to go take more! I will try to post as many as I can for y'all

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

They Can Sense It

So this last week was the first actual week of school and I am keeping up well between the reading and writing notes in every class that I have. You know for college classes they say that for ever hour of class you spend you should spend 2 hours studying for that class, sounds easy enough right. Well it isn't! Thankfully you have all these other outgoing kids in your class to study with *sarcasm*, in the end your on your own honestly. However, recently I have noticed a strange occurrence in my life and it honestly has nothing to do with the studying. So since my amazingly loving boyfriend and best friend of a little over a year moved down to Apple Valley, 448 miles from me, I have been alone here. With the exception of my friend and fellow blogger Finally Freckled I haven't hung out with many other people especially from school. Now a LDR (Long Distance Relationship) does a few things when you love the other person very much the main two are that you feel alone and you feel vulnerable.

Now I kid you not that I'm serious about what I say next. THE MALE GENDER CAN SENSE YOUR VULNERABILITY! I'm not kidding I swear there must be a giant yellow sign on my back that says "This one right here, she's sad and missing her man so now is the time to STRIKE!" If there any guys out there please feel free to correct me. The only conundrum I have with this is what I think is something every girl has which is that its never when you are single. For example; about a month before my current long term man was in the picture I had no guys interested, there was literally zero men who would even flirt with me. But now, now is a whole another story! After being in a relationship for longer than a year I still have men asking me out, constantly. This week alone the numbers are reaching the double digits, so maybe its the sadness of missing him, or maybe they sense I am weak but all I know is I won't ever understand men. 

I miss him but the countdown is on because I'll be driving down to him to see him for valentines day weekend. So worth it.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Books, Books, Books

We all know how it goes at the beginning of the year you go to all your classes then you get the books. Once you have the books then you have to start the reading and the notes then next thing you know you have a pile of homework and no life! Because of this I will probably only be posting every once in a while.

If it makes you feel better look at all these books I have to read, notate, and answer hundreds of in book questions. Enjoy your freedom internet friends!

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Magic Stuff

Today I bought a jar of magic! Ok, you got me, it isn't really magic its coconut oil. The only reason I call it a "jar of magic" is there are so many things that you can do with just one type of oil. The best part is if you look it up online there are hundreds of ways to use coconut oil like food, beauty, and even weight loss. Now I had read about this new "craze" of using coconut oil for basically everything from hair treatments to eating it by the spoonful. It has been proven that the eating of coconut oil daily helps with loosing water weight, clears your skin, boosts the metabolism, and supports healthy thyroid function. Here are a few things that I do with my coconut oil:

-Oil Pulling: Swish around some of the oil in your mouth for 10-20 mins while you get ready to clear out toxins in the body, whiten teeth, and reduce plaque. After the 10-20 mins spit out in the trash (not down the drain because it will block the pipes) and rinse with salt water. Then you can brush your teeth and floss like you normally do and continue on with the day!

-Butter Replacement: Need butter for your pan, toast, maybe even recipes...replace it with coconut oil! It tastes amazing and is %100 better for you.

-DIY Cellulite Coffee Scrub: Personally I have only used my oil for a body and lip scrub but it is amazing especially with this recipe for getting rid of cellulite it is so moisturizing and works great on stretch marks! Here is the Coffee and Coconut Oil Scrub I have been using that I love.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

A Girls Daily Struggle

We have all been there ladies. The small bump that you see and then the horror of knowing the next day there will be this big red sign on your face screaming at the world "LOOK HERE, LOOK AT HER IMPERFECTIONS!" I have struggled with my skin my whole life and I know for a fact I am not alone. It was hard growing up because I was teased and tormented over the scars and marks on my face which never went away. At one point I even went as far as putting bandaids on the marks just to hide them! It was sad that that is what it had come to and when my junior year arrived fast and furious I said enough is enough. I was confident in my body and skin and it helped myself, however, I cant say I just forgot about it I only pushed it to the back of my mind. This was my face on what I like to call a "Perfect day."

Now being confident is great and all but it doesn't fix the blemishes, blackheads, scabs, and redness of your skin. So a few months ago I started getting serious about my skin. I wash my face twice a day with a hydrating cleanser and right after apply a toner and an oil free moisturizer. It was doing WONDERS for my skin but I knew it wasn't cleaning deep enough when I started to see I still had plenty of problems with blemishes. My automatic reaction was to just give up I felt like it was impossible for me to get my skin to a better place. That is when I went online and did some research of what I could do as my last step. That's when I found the Clarisonic. Its only day 2 and I already have cleaner clearer skin, yes I know its one of those "popular products" and people say "it doesnt actually work." But this time I took a chance and went with the crowd. Here's to hoping for my skin and confidence it pays of *crosses fingers*.

                                                          x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Change and Chaos

It happens all the time you look at your room and it hits, that thought of "THERE IS SOMETHING I CAN DO TO MAKE IT BETTER!" It hits me once every maybe 3 or 4 months one minute I'm sitting on my bed on Pinterest and the next I am scouring the planet for supplies of the ridiculous sort. So almost 2 months ago I change everything, of course! I hang a huge mirror get all those sparkly lights to hang everywhere (like all the pictures) and get rid of everything practical so that its like a catalog. I feel great about it...until 2 weeks go by and I realize "why am i squinting? why is everything on the floor? where did I put what was on the bookcase that held everything and I got rid of cause it was taking up all the room?"

Here I am 2 months later ripping out my hair and stepping over everything that was on my bookcases! HOW DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! So now I walk around passive aggressively avoiding all the crap on my floor and honestly crying to myself on the inside. So here is some advice from me too you; PLAN, PLAN, PLAN! Draw it out if you have to. But most importantly remember my #1 rule.

#1 Rule: Everything in your room needs to have a spot. Do not, absolutely do not get rid of things that hold possessions without having a new spot for them already planned.

Here's why....

What might have been in a place before will now end up on the floor then before you know it it will be covered by clothes and misc. and end up looking like this.

Plan first, even if it means drawing a rough floor plan with graph paper. Clean, make sure everything is put away and if you move stuff vacuum. This helps transferring all your items and making sure you have a home for everything before you do the final big moves. Finalize, I cannot make this clear enough! Once you have started you DO NOT STOP! If you stop in the middle of the big things it will never get finished. Push on through and finish that move as soon as possible and put all your things in their places. Then celebrate with a nice cup of tea!

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Long Distance: A Countdown

1 year, 2 months, and 16 days ago the most amazing man of my life asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. In the moment I had no idea that this would be the most life changing decision of my life in so many more ways than one. In all honesty I haven't even once in my life considered loving someone in the way you see in the movies and books. I never thought one man could make me feel this way and of course this revelation hit me at the worst time possible. After knowing him for 3 years and falling in love with him more than I had ever know was possible he took me on what I thought was a simple walk through the park. I hadn't told him I loved him at this point and I thought this would be when he would tell me those 3 words. 

Here I am in love with this man and waiting for him to tell me what I already know he must feel also. The news I got was so different I couldn't help but sob he kissed me and told me he might have to move with his family 450 miles away and here I just admitted to myself for the first time I loved someone. A year later he was still here and I was so happy I never thought I could feel this way. Well I guess sometimes fate (if you believe in it) has other ideas. Sure enough on the 20th of December he moved 448 miles from me. I know your tired of hearing the love story so here is my first post!

Long Distance: A Countdown

The saying is so common it hurts honestly "distance makes the heart grow fonder" sorry for all the readers out there but I am calling BULLSHIT! 3 weeks into this whole distance I really want to just cry all the time and I have never wanted to just be held by him so bad. So I have taken up some classic Pinterest activities under the "long distance" activities. Here are my top 4 ways to countdown the day till I see my love again.

1. A kiss a day. Its a great way to have not only a little sweet treat but also be excited when there are less and less in the jar! 

2. Photograph your life. Take pictures of the little things its what he loves the most, take pictures of funny things you see even the beautiful things. He wants to see them trust me and it will make you and him happy. Something silly or something you know he might miss about you maybe two of his favorite things. For example here's me and a puppy (his two favorite things)!!

3.Write a letter. Trust me guys your man loves reading your letters. They are personal and sometimes there are even extras you can add. Maybe you slip in one of the pictures you took of your day to day activities, spray your perfume on it, or add a kiss with some lipstick on. Personally mine saves them all, every little note. 

4. Talk on the phone!!!! We talk to each other once a day everyday it helps even if its the same "what did you do today? how are you?" The little things always count and hearing his voice makes me happy and him hearing my voice makes him happy.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x