The Literary Addiction

For many years I have loved the knowledge that comes from books. The idea that you can enter a world entirely different than your own, just by opening the pages and letting your imagination roam. Growing up it is clear to me the long lasting effects of a well read and well educated individual. Whether at home, or at school, even in the general public the advantage of those who have read early on and often is plain to see. 

My grandmother and mom have always pushed me to be the best person that I could be. At the age of two I started reading chapter books. At the age of 5 I horded flashlights so that at night I could read under my blankets; I say horded because I did not know you could replace the batteries, of course mom finally figured that out and stopped buying them for me. At the age of 7 I was reading the Harry Potter books at an alarming rate. Fast forward 11 years, and at my now age of 18, my "literary addiction" is worse than ever. 

You book lovers out there know what I mean. We read for fun, we live in the world where anything is possible if you pick up a book, and we fall in love with in depth characters. There is a great quote by George R. R. Martin that all of you who are teased, scorned, and tormented for your love of knowledge should know and take to heart. 

“A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies... The man who never reads lives only one.”

Before you delve back into your worlds of fantasy, history, or whatever your vice may be. Here is a poem I wrote in High School for your entertainment.

Abaft the tranquility is barred, a gate from which the pain cannot seep.

A tired mind and shattered soul sentinel the ingression to secrets beneath. 

Only time reveals and only love may heal. 

But one hole shall take more time to fill. 

Nothing to mend, everything bent.

Some things just missing.     

A soft and plaintive cry eludes and the barred gates start hissing.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

Spring Break 2015

The stress from the semester was almost overwhelming as the time for spring break rolled around on Thursday last week. Thankfully class ended on Thursday and it seemed as if the stress on my body was instantly lifted. I was about to head down to my boyfriends house for the break and the thought alone of seeing him later that day made me so happy I could cry. Unfortunately, this meant a 7 hour drive starting at 3 o'clock in the afternoon and I did dread the drive to Apple Valley all the way from Napa. In case you don't know what that looks like, its something like this...

Its a long, very straight, and altogether a not entertaining drive. The views are dull, the weather is hot, and its blindingly sunny when its 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Finally, after 7 1/2 hours of boring as hell driving I arrived at his house at 10:30pm. Thankfully he kissed me and hugged me and we got to go in the hot tub before a great nights sleep. 

Four days later and my spring break vacation in the lovely, and frankly hot as hell, southern California is going amazing! We have been swimming and hot tubing every day and night which has been so much fun although not without negative side effects. I did get one of the worst sunburns even though I lathered up on sunscreen, wore a hat, and went in and out of the sun every 30 mins. Other than swimming we have been watching movies, relaxing, playing with his adorable dog Sarge, and just plain messing around. I have been so relaxed and with no homework assigned for the 10 days of relaxation. Tomorrow I'm not sure what I will be posting but I know I will come up with something. So here are some pictures from my So-Cal vacation. 

Lather up, get out in the sun, and enjoy yourselves! 

Felt confident enough to wear a bikini! <3 My journey to loving myself is working. 

Its been sunny like this everyday starting at 7:30 am! With the highest temperature, so far, being over 85 degrees.

Here's my boyfriends 8 month old puppy. His name is Sarge. Were teaching him how to love swimming.

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x

The Trouble With Love

If you have read all my blog posts you will have no doubt seen that I am in fact in an open relationship. Well I can't lie to you guys. Its been hell. To start with my amazing boyfriend of almost a year and a half. For the sake of this post lets call him Tim. So Tim and I are doing great well depending on your view of things. We Skype, text, Facebook, and I think of him constantly. The problem with that is that it only took me about 2 weeks to be so miserable I wanted to crawl in a hole and stay there. I started crying every night, having dreams that would make me miss him so much I was sick. Tim seemed fine, at least that's what he was telling me, he was part of a new boy scout adventure crew and started going to school. Naturally I am always happy when he isn't unhappy. The only problem with that is that I was so miserable I couldn't begin to even pretend I was OK without him. In steps, lets call him Matt, so in steps Matt. I met him online and thought it would be great to have some new friends in town (well sorta from town or at least near). 

Matt is so much fun, he is so smart, and well honestly hes cute. So in case you couldn't tell what the dilemma was, here it is. Matt is amazing, and he fills that hole that Tim made when he left me here without him. But I love Tim so much it seems unfair to hang out with Matt so much. Naturally after hanging out a while with Matt (and being in an open relationship) things progressed to a little more than friendship. He kissed me, I kissed him. So per our agreement I told Tim everything about Matt and I. He tells me hes ok with it and he is just glad I'm not so unhappy anymore. I believed him because I have never had any reason to think he wouldn't tell me what hes thinking. 

In the end Tim lied and he is upset about it. Now I don't see Matt as much and now I miss both of them. I guess when it comes to guys I just don't really have any idea what I'm doing. I miss Tim so much it hurts and Matt says he misses me. I miss them both. 

Well I don't really have a life lesson here yet but I guess its more of a rant today. 

x Be Blonde Be Beautiful x